I was all happy after I got some actual restful sleep and woke up feeling really good, not all sluggish. I was happy, so I said so and told how I was able to get such restful sleep for once. The credit went to the restoril I took when I went to bed. The first time I'd taken it.
Lots of responses in this chatroom were along the lines of "Yay, sleep."
Then someone started in on this whole meditation/anti-pill speech. I don't care for pills myself, but when I can't handle something on my own, I'll take a pill. I'd already been tossing and turning for the week before, so I think a single restful sleep in a week due to a pill is understandable.
"You should try meditation."
"I have tried meditation and it doesn't work."
"It doesn't work because you don't want it to."
"I've been to numerous meditation classes, and therapists that have tried meditation. It just doesn't relax me. I may appear relaxed, but my mind goes full speed ahead with things said and things not said. The only thing that meditation has done for me along those lines is to fake a nap, which is just so I can go on longer without being quite so zombified.
And it's really irritating for someone with insomnia to be told that they're not sleeping simply because they don't want to. I can tell you that after three days awake, it's all you want, and you keep trying. And then when day six rolls around, you're panicking and calling the doctor. Day ten comes up and you're googling how you're still alive. Day twelve comes up and you've given up completely, but still want it more than anything. Thirteen days awake is a horrible experience that I never want to have again."
That ended the conversation, but I find it extremely irritating that someone who clearly does NOT have horrible insomnia to tell me that I am not experiencing what I am experiencing. Your assumption is based around your own experience. Maybe you've had some sleepless nights. I'm sure it happens to everyone at one point or another. But that is NOT the same as someone who has grown to have an anxiety to going to bed, because failure is more common than a restful sleep. It is not the same as someone who has a high tolerance to multiple sedatives, including herbal and medical.
I guess I see it as a general social rule to not tell someone that based on your own experience, they are wrong and there is no other way. I wouldn't be offended at someone suggesting I didn't do something the right way, and that's why it's not working. But to just flat out tell me that I'm wrong based on nothing more than me saying that something doesn't work for me is highly irritating.
I felt the need to rant, and now I have.
